I sat there at the back of the classroom, black hoody and baggy jeans on, frowning, extremely triggered by all the talk of money, and business and success whilst "serving from the heart."
These people were "fake wankers", and were "full of shit" I told myself and I decided I was in the wrong place.
When they mentioned "making $25,000 a month" I almost threw up.
I was face to face with what I would later describe as "poverty conditioning"
It was 2008 and I was at TCI's life coaching intake weekend.
It was something I'd wanted to do for years, but the stigma of 80s motivational speaker cheesiness kept me away.
Now I was finally in the room and I was REALLY triggered.
To my credit, after I left I could see that I was projecting.
I'd already done a lot of work on various aspects of myself but this was the first time I realised that money and business were BIG mirrors.
I decided I'd do whatever it took to change my mindset and programming around money and wealth and business.
It was a slow and arduous journey that felt like climbing a huge mountain with a stone in my shoe.
At the time I was a rapper making about $10,000 a year from music and workshops and supplementing my income with cash work.
I did what the books said and went and got a sales job.
It was one of the best things I ever did.
I took on clients but unlike the ones that turned up in the testimonials on the website all of mine were broke musicians.
They'd try to pay me with a bag of weed!
Eventually though things DID start to shift.
I got good at sales.
I cleared more stuff around money.
The obsessive reading and listening to audiobooks began to pay off.
I got better at coaching.
I took on my own coaches.
I stopped projecting shit into "rich people".
I started attracting better and better clients.
I held myself with more confidence.
I did goddamn training and evolutionary process I could get my hands on from sales and marketing, to plant medicine, from excel spreadsheets to tantra massage.
And so on and so on.
In 2012 all of the kinesiology, NLP, chakras, spiral dynamics, energy psychology and coaching stuff started to come together.
I quit my job as a (kick arse) sales trainer.
I opened a clinic.
The Spiral, Soul Values, Self Clearing, Wealth Clearing gradually evolved.
I have a particular interest in wealth, worth, business and entrepreneurship because these are precise areas that I feel have provided me with THE strongest mirrors for spiritual and personal growth.
Today I'm flying to Sydney to speak at Mark Robinson's 3 day event Winning The Wealth Game.
I'll be speaking twice over the weekend - both on Entrepreneurship AND on Wealth Mindset.
I cannot explain how grateful and humbled I am to be on this journey.
It doesn't matter WHICH area of your life it is - once you COMMIT - you can COMPLETELY change it.
I share this stuff with the intention of inspiring you.
IF I CAN DO IT - YOU CAN DO IT.
The processes I've created are for those who want more than just inspiration.
I can save you a LOT of time and energy.
You know where to find me if you want help.
Gary Newton is the Creative Director of The Spiral. Find out more here.