How was life before The Coaching Institute? What were you looking for and why did you decide to become a coach?
It takes me a little bit of a conscious effort to think about who I was at that point. As I am such a different person now.
I had just turned 40 with two young children. I had been a school teacher for quite a while and had worked my way up in educational leadership to the stage where I thought I'd always wanted to be. Or where other people thought I should be in my career. So life was looking pretty good on the outside.
However, in my internal world I felt completely crippled with fear and a sense of not being good enough, constantly measuring myself up against the success of others.
I was addicted to certainty to the point where I knew I wanted a different life. Something was missing and I was just a bit miserable, but I was so risk adverse and stuck in this world of certainty.
I remember one of the calls I had with The Coaching Institute when I was first considering joining the school. We were talking about making sure my ducks were lined up.
That was my whole life. I was the mother duck running around in a frantic state, just trying to get all my ducks lined up. Now I know it never happens like that. You just need to start walking and they all line up behind you.
Was it a pivotal moment when you had the awareness to go it's up to me, I need to stop waiting?
Totally. I felt the frustration of ‘I've been waiting’, ‘I've been talking about this’, ‘I've been miserable for so long’. And it was just this moment where everything just dropped in and I was like, wow, unless I take full responsibility for this and just start walking forward, I'm just going to be chained where I am.
So yeah, it was a pivotal moment. And I remember why I originally wanted to come to The Coaching Institute. It was to learn some really great ways of asking quality questions so I could coach other people.