You used to be creative, spontaneous and carefree but in the constant ding of the routine of texts, work, playing the game, looking after everyone else, that faded. No longer do you have space for thoughts.
It’s always the next thing and the next thing on your never-ending to-do list. You play the role well, but keeping up appearances is exhausting.
Get up early and exercise—ha what a joke because every day you wake up tired from the stress and the glass of wine the night before.
Deep down feeling that there is more, something still left to achieve. It’s a feeling deep down that you try to suppress. It is there, and it wants to be heard, it wants to be given life, but the distraction called daily life quietens it.
You’re overweight, but you can manage it, not quite a health risk yet but it’s not easy getting around and you get tired quickly.
Your relationships are going along okay. That is at least when you have time or space for them.
The train wreck is coming for you, believe me, and it’s time to take your life off pause.
I have been there before. In the past, it has taken hospital trips for me to stop waiting and start acting.
Lacking clarity, lacking purpose and living day to day with no vision of the future is a dangerous place to be, and it can only go two ways.
The decision is up to you which way it goes, and by not making that choice yourself, you, in fact, leave it up to the universe, and no matter what you believe nature will balance itself.